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About Me

my name is essence Master gave me this name when We first started exploring together i was not always a submissive woman or should i say i did not discover this side of me until i met the most wonderful Man i know. We met online almost 4 years ago i knew little of the D/s lifestyle We were first friends, talking for months… to meeting in real… becoming lovers. We've been living together for a year now.  i call Him Daddy.
you can email me at essence at subessence.com

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Archive for October, 2008

And the sun still shines…

Author: essence
10 21st, 2008

It’s been a few weeks, i’ve been keeping busy. Fall has arrived, which means Halloween is around the corner. i for one, love Halloween, not so much the candy part, but i love sewing costumes for my children. So i have kept busy with that, and spending time with them and my Daddy.

my friend who passed away, was also a seamtress, she got such joy from seeing my kids at her door every Halloween. The week before she passed she was voicing how much she loved seeing them to a few of us, and i had made a note that her house would be the first on our list to go to. i will still go there, as planned and let her husband know we will keep up that tradition.

Life goes on, but she has made a HUGE impact. Her passing was a very emotional time for so many. The services were packed and it showed how many lives she had touched. Honestly, it was so overwhelming to see. She will not be forgotten. More importantly, her family should not be forgotten, it is now that they need the support more than ever. Her youngest son, is the same age as my oldest son, it made my son feel something that i don’t think he had ever thought of before… what if that was my mom? He lives just a few houses down from hers at his dad’s. He found out she had passed and called me up, very upset and wanting to know if i needed him to come home for me, i smiled deeply and thought, my son needs his mom, but i made him think yes, i needed him. He came running home to mom. We cried and cried, and i held him for all the fears he has and for the pain this brought up. You see, my oldest has been through some of the most painful times with me, we both lost 2 people very dear and significant in our lives. His adored Uncle (my brother) and his beloved Grandmother (my mom). Nothing hurts more than to see your child in such pain and you can’t take it away. So here was my child, crying for his losses and for the boy who lost his mother just so close to his home and for fear of what he could lose. i held him tight, we talked of so many things. i let him believe that i needed him and i did, but deep down i knew he needed his mom and just couldn’t admit it. This still makes me my heart dance.

i believe with everything we experience good or bad, there comes a lesson. With my friend’s passing i learned alot about inner strength, she had such strength, she was preparing everyone for her departure with such love, compassion, and what courage! this was something i had never seen before. i learned that family is so important, and i haven’t spoken to/or seen some of mine since my mother’s passing. It has made me look reflect on this ALOT.

Last, yes, this brought up feelings of my own losses, especially my mother. i reached out to my friend’s children, knowing the loss they feel, i feel that loss daily. my mother left a mark of love on me, and i could see that my friend had done the same with her children. my son reaching out to me the way he did…

i hope and i pray that i leave as big of a mark of love on my children as these brave women did. They were both incredible women.

There is another big bright shining star in the heavens now.



Let it Be

Author: essence
10 3rd, 2008

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.

Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Yeah, There will be an answer, let it be.

Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, yeah let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me.
Shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, yeah let it be.
There will be and answer, let it be.

Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, yeah let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be. (The Beatles)

Last night my friend lost her battle with cancer. She was surrounded by her husband and family when she took her last breath.

She lived, she laughed, she loved and she was loved by many.

Reach out today to someone you haven’t reached out to in a long time, open doors, close gaps, for tomorrow we don’t know what it brings.

‘And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make’