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November 2007
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About Me

my name is essence Master gave me this name when We first started exploring together i was not always a submissive woman or should i say i did not discover this side of me until i met the most wonderful Man i know. We met online almost 4 years ago i knew little of the D/s lifestyle We were first friends, talking for months… to meeting in real… becoming lovers. We've been living together for a year now.  i call Him Daddy.
you can email me at essence at subessence.com

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Archive for November, 2007

Sugasm 107

Author: essence
11 27th, 2007

Once again subessence is proud to be a part of Sugasm. Tulips… His Lips… her lips…

The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #108? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.

Image: Tara courtesy of Tara Tainton.

This Week’s Picks
Half-Nekkid Blow Job
” We could hear people walking past and talking so they’d be able to hear us as well.”

Masturbation on a Memory
“I let the first time I had sex with your flash back though my mind.”

Reality Check: Handling Long Calls
“While I get my share of quick cummer calls I have several clients that like to talk for hours.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
Christian Friis

Editor’s Choice
A Non-Monogamy Lexicon

More Sugasm

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See also: Fleshbot’s Sex Blog Roundup each Tuesday and Friday.

Erotic Writing and Experiences
Bad Girl
The Driving Lesson
The First Date part one

Late Meeting
Night Call
Over the tub
Saturday night special
Sweet Dreams

Sex Advice
Bringing It Up Gracefully
I Don’t Need Porn, I Get Real Sex!
Prince Albert for thanksgiving

NSFW Pics & Videos
Aria Giovanni sexy video
Catalina loves her New Black Silk Corset and Boots
Pornsaint Popwhore
WebMistress Feature Gallery: Flirting with the Camera

BDSM & Fetish
Big Fun in a Small Space

Double Dip Part 2
I don’t chase
Ideas of my own.
My Reformatory Birching
The Perfect Implement of Pain
Rope as a tool for Intimacy
She Came In Wearing A Corset, Stockings, And A Smile
YouPorn, MePorn

Sex News & Reviews

Fetish Film - Julie Simone’s Diary Of A Submissive (Bondage, Spanking, Femdom)
Five Sips of Darkness
Special Discount for Our Naughty Friends!

Sex Poetry
Tulips… His lips… Her lips…

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
Me and My Vagina
Oh..oh…oh! My orgasm- A User’s Guide.
On Self Image and Confidence

An orgasm faker wannabe
Relationship Rules
Retail Therapy

Sex Humor
Decoding A Dominant Personal Ad
Happy Thanksgiving!

Dear Daddy…

Author: essence
11 26th, 2007

i know we have been super busy with You moving in and the Holiday Season now on us. i realize i have not been taking care of Your property as i said i would. my eating habits got bad and i got out of my routine of exercise. This is all going to change…

This morning when i woke up i thought today… TODAY! i am going to get back into the swing of things and stay on this. So i got up, did my stairstepper, got out my leg weights and worked out. It felt sooooo good. i must say Daddy… having that new mp3 player worked out great too. Thank You so much for Your continuing Love, Kindness, Guidance, Strength … i am by far the luckiest lil girl around… i have the best Daddy anyone could hope or dream for.

So i promise to shed those few pounds i took on… and get back into perfect shape for You. i want nothing more to please You.

i love You
Your babygirl

What You Give

Author: essence
11 26th, 2007


my Love, You amaze me
With the Love You show me
i feel Your Love within me
i carry it everywhere i go

i am in awe at You
The Strength You have
The Knowledge that You share
The Patience You give

i am truly blessed
i could not ask for a Greater Love
Yours is all i need
Yours is all i desire

i walk daily through this life
Missing Your touch
But then i remember
Your touch is forever
Embedded in my heart

A heart so full of love for You
A desire so driven for You
A passion ignited only by You
It runs deep for You my Love…

i await the day
When i will become One with You
One as God intended
For a Man and woman

i will give myself to You
For You to mold, shape
As though taking Your rib
and creating me as an Image of You

i am Yours my Love
You have changed me
Calming something inside
No One ever has

i know now
After all these years
Where i belong…
i am Yours my Love…
…for all Eternity…


Written with Love for Master November 15, 2006

It’s that time of year…

Author: essence
11 25th, 2007

ahhh the Holiday Season is officially upon us. i decided to bring some Holiday Cheer to my blog. This is going to be, by far, the best Holiday for me! Having my Daddy with me… has been wonderful and that’s an understatement.

We’ve been very busy. Getting Him settled, merging our things. It takes time! But i am so happy, words can’t even express my joy. Thanksgiving was great… aside from my lip incident… which has healed nicely… almost gone really. We’ve been shopping, actually we are almost done already. Daddy has been spoiling me too… bought me presents… not waiting until Christmas to give them to me.

He is by far the definition of selfless giving. i am learning so much from Him in that regard. It’s not just me that He does this with either… i have seen Him display this selfless giving time and time again. He is truly an extraordinary man and i am by far the luckiest girl in the world. He encouraged me to take a plate of Thanksgiving Dinner to my ex, telling me “baby, it’s just a good thing to do.” Even though it was difficult for me, He’s right, it was a good thing to do. Sometimes it’s not about right or wrong, it’s just a good thing to do. This is just one thing i love about Him, there is so many.

i hope to get back to writing here more, when we get more settled. It’s a busy time of year for all… but hopefully things will slow down.

Now i must go curl up with Daddy and let Him know how much He is loved…

More than i could ever say in words Daddy… i adore You.



Author: essence
11 22nd, 2007

As i am making Thanksgiving Dinner for my family (including Daddy) i reach up to the top shelf of the cupboard to grab a bowl and a small stainless steel bowl falls and lands on my mouth, my upper lip cut a lil and puffy. Not too bad now… but then Daddy pulls me in His arms and says in my ear… “babygirl, be careful, you must take great care of Daddy’s sweet mouth…” After it quit stinging… i looked in the mirror… my first thought just happened to be… it’s going to be hard to suck Daddy’s cock with this lip now. sighs… sipping coffee is not an enjoyable event either. lol


Complete Love

Author: essence
11 15th, 2007


He draws breath
and i am drawn into Him
Never have i felt
such sweet intoxication
i drink in His love
it nourishes me
i blossom
i grow
i await for Him
to drink my sweet nectar

The way He looks at me
Sends my insides trembling
The way He kisses me
Makes me short of breathe
The way He touches me
Sends shivers down my spine
The way He loves me
Sends my heart to a place

its never known
Complete Love

Does He know just how much i love him?
He is my everything
He fullfills my every need
i want for nothing but
only to please Him

His love wraps around me
and protects me from harm
i feel warm and safe
awestruck by His passion
i am completely in love


Written with inspiration from my Master’s Love
September 2006

Busy busy BUSY

Author: essence
11 14th, 2007

So many things to do… Master moved in less than a week ago, slowly we have been unpacking, organizing, merging Our lives. As i sit in “Our” office now, He is playing His guitar and yes… it still makes me wet … and i want Him more than ever … to just throw me down and take me. How i love listening to Him.

We are starting this new chapter of Our life together and it’s exciting. i have had a big smile on my face for days now, people at work notice it. i can’t wait to get home to see Him…. He opens the door as i walk up the steps and kisses me when i walk in the door. … i am home… He is my home… this is Our home.

The excitement overwhelms me. i just stopped looked into His eyes, as He plays His guitar a smile deep within me radiates and i grin… i pinch myself. He laughs. Yes we are real, no more part time, once a month. This is what we have both wanted for a long time.

Today i am grateful for everything, every little damn thing that lead me to my Daddy. We found each other, We found Us. As He pulls me into bed, wrapping His arms around me, safe is what i feel, love is what shines from Us… and chills still run down my spine as i feel His lips on my ear saying…”Mine”… taking what is His… i surrender… i surrender to my Master, my Daddy, my Lover, my Best Friend… my Everything.

Now i must go kneel before my Daddy while He strums His guitar and let Him see the desire in my eyes… desire for Him and Him alone.



Author: essence
11 10th, 2007

That’s Us now. 24-7. Master arrived last night, tired but safely. i have never been so happy to see Him. i had supper waiting for Him, we unloaded the truck. i felt like both of us were talking nonstop, so much to say… hugging, kissing… mmmmmmmm those kisses. Words of love, so happy to see each other, how much we love one another, how much we have wanted THIS. And it’s real now… We are together.

Last night, He pulled me into His arms… looked at me… told me… “Tonight baby, i will make You mine forever… no more leaving.” He did, hours of lovemaking to fucking.. to taking me… to my cries of lust… i can’t get enough of Him. He Possessed me … i am His… We are Home. Today is the first day of a new chapter in our life together. The best chapter so far.

So much to do now. Unpack, organize, get settled… but no stress whatsoever, as He is here, with me, i am Owned, Loved… i am Complete.


Dear Master…

Author: essence
11 9th, 2007

We just hung up from our nightly talk and before i going to sleep, i felt the need to sit down and write to You. i know You won’t be able to read this until after You arrive here, as all Your things are packed in the truck.

It is hard to believe that in less than 24 hours You will be arriving here. With You, all Your belongings, moving in with me. i am so happy, words cannot express the joy my heart feels. i must say, i still pinch myself and have to remind myself… “no you are not dreaming… this is FINALLY going to happen.”

Daddy i know as i write this… You are sleeping. Getting rested for the drive tomorrow, Our last night without each other. As You said just a bit ago on the phone… “baby, tomorrow night I will be sleeping next to you, waking up with you… and every night after that.” A smile has not left my face, it is You that i want to serve, and take care of. It is Your feet that i want to kneel before, Your lap i want to lie my head in… It is You that i want to give myself to each and everyday, taking care of Your every need.

So much has gone through my mind these past couple weeks since You left here and started packing to move back. Over the last 2 1/2 years of our relationship, it has all lead up to this moment. i remember that wonderful day i drove up and our eyes met for the first time… i love hearing You tell of it. Saying how my face was glowing, smiling at You. i remember You meeting me at my car, reaching in, pulling me out and into Your arms. All the times after that i drove to see You, and You coming here.

Daddy, the memories of our journey together are so beautiful. It has not been an easy journey for us, long distance, is never easy. As our bond grew stronger, deeper, the distance between us was only that of miles, Our hearts remained as One. i have a huge smile on my face at all the memories that were coming back to me this week, the memories of our relationship growing into what it has today. The laughter, the tears, our quiet times, each visit bringing us closer, and yes, the love that blossomed into something bigger than either of us imagined.

So as i crawl into bed tonight, alone for the last time, awake knowing that it will be the day You arrive… i will be waiting Daddy, with open arms and my heart wide open… Where the next chapter of our life begins…..

Please be safe Daddy… as i have asked my Guardian Angels to watch over You as they would me…

Come Home to me safely…
Your babygirl awaits You arrival

i love You with all my heart.. a heart that is Yours… and Yours alone

Your girl forever

A Dream Come True

Author: essence
11 3rd, 2007

As i crawl into bed
Thoughts of You dance through my head
Grabbing my pillow tight
Holding it all through the night

Wishing it was You in my arms
Bringing me no harm
As i drift off into sleep
Into my dreams You creep

You take my hand
As You talk sweetly of our life plan
We talk of all the things we are going to do
And how they will come true

We share a love that is true and strong
Because of this, nothing could go wrong
A very special love
No one could ever rise above

From this dream i slowly awake
It is all there for Us to partake
For no longer are You the Man of my dreams
But a beautiful reality it would seem

As you take me into Your arms
Knowing i am free of any harm
No longer do i need to hold that pillow tight
For it is You i will be holding through the night


Written with Love for Master July 30, 2006