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August 2007
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About Me

my name is essence Master gave me this name when We first started exploring together i was not always a submissive woman or should i say i did not discover this side of me until i met the most wonderful Man i know. We met online almost 4 years ago i knew little of the D/s lifestyle We were first friends, talking for months… to meeting in real… becoming lovers. We've been living together for almost a year now.  i call Him Daddy.

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Master calls me essence… for i am the essence of His love… and He is the essence of my being…

Archive for August, 2007

08 20th, 2007

~His possession~

i’ve thought alot about this lately… how i have given myself to Master… this body is His… it is my responsibility to take care of it… keep it how He enjoys it… not just for Him to take and enjoy when He pleases but for Him to look upon… for Him to be proud that i am on His arm… no longer can i just let things go… just eat whatever … i have to watch so that i keep Master’s possession fit and healthy…

i was someone who took pride in my looks years ago… then i went through a difficult period and i lost myself… my sense of meaning… i didn’t take care of myself… i let myself go… i met Master when i was starting my new journey in self-discovery… He was a big inspiration to me… He has been so supportive of me… in every aspect of my life… even now… He helps me to stay on track with my diet… He has not only supported my outer self but my inner self… letting me know that it’s just my outer beauty He loves… but my inner as well…

How does one get so lucky to have this? i mean… i look back on past relationships… especially one that i was in during such a difficult time… the lack of support.. to a relationship that is so full of support…. i am truly amazed by my Master’s love for me… it is something i have never experienced before…. He found me… He has helped me restore my faith in myself again… He has given me hope… support… protection… He has shared His wisdom… and most of all He has given me His love…

i hold all these things Master.. close to my heart… i treasure them… You are my Everything… and i am Yours…

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my thoughts today~08.18.07

Author: essence
08 18th, 2007

It is late… i couldn’t sleep… so i decided to redo my blog a bit… moving all my thoughts & letters to my Master in the blog.. my schedule has been hectic… Master understands this… but i feel as His submissive i need to be more attentive to Him and Us… this site is about not just my growth …but Ours…

Life is a struggle… but it is only as big of a struggle as you make it… my Master is very wise… and it is now that not only do i want to listen to His words of wisdom but take action and apply them…. there is so much that i feel and want to express…. i need to get back to my writings again… and let those thoughts, feelings.. my creativity flow again….it is through this that i feel how much i grow and flourish…. i love writing… i am to blame for not taking that time for myself and expressing in words all that i am learning and have yet to learn…

Sometimes i feel like i have lived through so much….and at times i feel like i have yet to live…. it is with my Master that i feel that i am alive….

Master… i am Your babygirl….forever and always…. You have something that no one has ever had… my precious gift….my submission…. i love You

Your essence



08 18th, 2007

~The Art of Making Love~

Have you ever felt what it really is like to make love? i think anyone can have wild sex… full of desire… want… passion… but making love is completely different from that…

Looking back over past relationships… i can honestly say.. i never experienced what making love was really like until Master… Our bond has deepened so much… on so many different levels… for Us… every aspect of Our relationship just keeps growing… it amazes me… and gives me butterflies… it is without a doubt that my love for Master has no boundaries… Each time i am with Master… Our bond deepens… Our love grows… Our love surprises Us… and We cherish it…

Master said to me a long time ago… foreplay is all day long with intermissions to make love… and He was so right… the chemistry between Us … is an all day long occurrence… not just in a moment of passion… it is all day long The way He looks at me… makes my insides melt… the way He touches me… even just the brush of His hand on mine… sends electricity through me… and the way He kisses me…. leaving me breathless… unaware of where i am… or who is around… and it is at these times… i want to just surrender to Him… right then and there… for Him to just take what is His…

So later in the day… after a day of seduction… when Master takes what is His… the intensity of it is unbelievable… to wild uninhibited sex to intense… tender.. passionate lovemaking… sometimes hours… exploring each other… talking to one another …it is incredible… He has taken me to new heights… higher than i have ever gone before… i am intoxicated at His love and desire for me… The uniting of Our spirits… dancing together… is the most wondrous feeling i have ever known.. i cannot even begin to express words to the extent of Our passion for One another…

With Master… because He doesn’t abuse my submission… because He does treasure as His gift… i am able to completely let go… hold back nothing… and i can honestly say… i feel completely free… free to explore… free to ask questions… free to let myself be that slutty seductress for my Master… and nothing is held back… Master’s Love sets me free… and it is the something i have never experienced before… so now my orgasms are not just your ordinary orgasms… they run completely through me… i feel it throughout my body… and beyond that.. it is really hard for me to put into words… all i can say is.. i have never had orgasms like this before…

To be with Someone that you fit together with… in all aspects of your life… and to have the most incredible connection with… and to have that bond deepen more and more… to have the Love you share grow bigger and bigger… then to have it all join together in making love… i can truly say… The Art of Making Love is the uniting of not just bodies… but of hearts… minds… souls… it is a completeness that i don’t think many experience… Master & i are very fortunate…

i love You Daddy… and i am Yours completely… forever and beyond….

Daddy’s princess
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Master & i have been talking alot lately about how much We have learned and grown together… i was telling Him how i looked up to Him… How much i admired Him… learned from Him… He told me that He has learned from me also… my writings has shown him things deep within me… He told me it helps Him understand Us better as well… through this We have both grown… individually and as a couple…

i am very grateful for the patience Master has shown me over the months… my learning and growing into who i am today… i have come a long way… i know there is so much more for me to learn and once Master & i are living in the same place… my serious training will begin…

Master & i have the kind of open relationship i have always dreamed of having… to be able to talk openly and freely about anything and everything… i am still learning to trust in myself to open up more and more… as Master puts it… “complete surrendering happens overtime… the more I love you the more open you will become…” and after 2 yrs with Master… looking back from the beginning to now… i do see how much more i have opened up… i see that He is right… (again) *s*

Master and i have shared many fantasies together… this has been an ongoing journey and frankly i hope it never goes away… i think our bond has deepened greatly through this and it has also helped me to open up more to Master…

In a previous relationship … i did open up with someone and later … when i ended the relationship .. he was bitter and threw so much in my face.. hurting me deeply and never wanting to open up that part of me again to someone… i did not want to make myself vulnerable ever again… but by doing so… i was letting him have power over me… believing and trusting in someone again was going to be difficult and the next person would never know part of me that can be erotic, fun and exciting… i let him have power over me even though i was not involved with him any longer…

That’s a pretty big realization… when you think you are doing something to protect yourself… you are not being true to yourself… and you are giving that person power over you… wow…when i sit and read that… just wow… not being true to oneself… interesting for me to reflect now on that (vanilla) relationship and how he was always trying to control me… and i fought it.. because i did not trust him completely… i found him to be lacking in control of himself, his life and the direction he supposedly was seeking… i see him now as someone who is very confused on so many levels and has a great amount of fear…..

so sometimes when i sit and reflect on my submission to Master… it amazes me how much i have grown from that girl that fought so hard to not give someone control… but like i said.. this person was not in control of themselves… Master is… He has such wisdom.. i look up to Him so much and as i stated in past writings… my surrendering to Him seems so natural… and yes the depth of my surrendering has grown so much over the months… and it continue to grows.. the more i open up to Master… the depth of my submission grows… the depth of Our love grows.. and it is through this i realize….. i have found my place …. at my Master’s feet… it is where i belong… and a peace comes over me that i have never known….. i have grown into my place in life….. to be Master’s … His babygirl…. His everything…

i love You Master

Your babygirl essence



08 18th, 2007

my Dearest Loving Master,

It is late and i can’t sleep, my thoughts turn to You as i lay awake missing You… i miss sleeping in Your arms… knowing how safe and protected i am… but more than that… it’s being so close to You… in Your presence… feeling Your warmth… Your love for me… a comfort… a contentment i have never known before… all fears, worries… wiped away… with You i know, i am in the best care possible…

You have captivated me Master… i want for nothing but to be at Your feet.. You are my Love.. my Life… my Everything… i have known this for sometime now… but the realization of it really has hit home… after seeing You this last visit… i feel it more than ever…. i am hopelessly in Love with You Master… hopelessly in Love…

Try as i might to stay busy… my thoughts always return to You… the way You gaze upon me… the sound of Your voice as We are making Love… the feel of Your body against mine… the feel of Your touch lingers not just on my skin but on my soul…. the way You kiss me… leaving me breathless and ready to surrender to You right then and there…..the way You call to me … my heart skips a beat each time You call me Your babygirl… Your princess… Your lover… Your subby… Your best friend… Your companion….. i quiver with anticipation for You to take what is Yours….

You are Everywhere in my life now… always with me… constantly in my heart and with each heartbeat… my love and desire for You grows… it overwhelms me … as i run my fingers over my collar.. my heart fills with pride and devotion to the One Man who has captured not only my heart but my mind, body and soul…… i am truly Yours….. Completely…..

Hopelessly in Love with You Daddy…..
Chained to You for Life
Your princess
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A letter to Master 05.22.07

Author: essence
08 18th, 2007

my Loving Daddy…

It was so wonderful to see You. Thank You for coming here to see me… It was so hard to see You drive away… i now know how You feel when i drive away… i always felt like the best part of me was left behind… this morning i saw the best part of me driving away…. i am lost without You my Love… never have i felt such love for Anyone… You truly are my Destiny… all that i have gone through in my life has lead me right before You… i was made for You…

When You arrived it was pure joy…my heart was soaring… my spirit dancing … i felt complete again… When You took me in Your arms… our lips meeting… such sweetness… You take such pleasure in making me weak in the knees from such kisses… i am one with You… it is You that i crave… You that desire… Your pleasure that i seek… i love You more than i have ever loved Anyone… and each time i am with You… my place at Your feet is more evident than the last time…

As i sit here… thinking over the last few days… we again were lost in our own world… enjoying each other… laughing together… exploring together… loving each other…. mmmmmmmmmmmm how You take me Daddy… the feelings are so overwhelming…. it’s the most incredible feeling i have ever known….whew… leaves me breathless thinking about it ….

i look forward to the day when we are together… forever… joined physically as we already know our spirits to be…… i truly am Your girl… Your submissive… Your babygirl… Your lover… Your everything….. i proudly wear Your collar and i am extremely proud to belong to You …. i am Yours ….Completely…. Forever bonded to You Daddy… Forever Your girl….. chained to You for eternity…and so damn happy to be all of it….

i love You my Sweet Loving Master…

Your babygirl forever…

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A letter to Master~05.02.07

Author: essence
08 18th, 2007

my Dearest Master…

It has only been a few weeks since i was with You but it seems forever… i miss You so much… i know the last few days have hit me with some unexpected stresses but i am so grateful to have You… You are my Rock… my Strength… the realization this morning of how much You are there for me… in so many ways… it is a wonderful overwhelming realization… then to know just how lucky i am to have You in my life… that Our lives have led Us to each Other … You have told me so many times… what We have is special… and it is… it truly is… We have what only some can hope for… We found it in each Other …

i think often of the night We were out and that Gentleman approached Us… telling Us how He had observed Us together… saying to me “He handles you well… meaning it shows how much He loves you…” i still get chills when i recall that moment… You have said to me more than once… “baby haven’t you noticed people watching Us?” i don’t… really because all i see is You Master… i am lost in You whenver i am with You… i am lost without You too…

i am so proud to wear Your collar… i want to tell everyone i am owned… but i don’t … most do not understand how it truly is… for me it is a natural thing to submit to You… in today’s society submission is misunderstood in so many ways… some look at it as weakness… some think of it as the Dom being controlling without realizing that yes a Dom has control but only because they were given control as a gift… that i, as a submissive, gave it to You… You did not take it from me… (but You do take me… and O M G how i love when You take what is Yours… mmmmmmm)

i am devoted to You Master… and i await the day when i will be at Your side again… in Your arms… in Your bed… forever… i am deeply in Love with You Master… You are my past, my present and my future… it is You that i ache for… You that i long for… You that i crave… You that i give myself to completely… my heart soars when You call me Your babygirl or Your princess.. i can’t tell You how proud i am to be Your girl in every sense of the word… i am Yours… i love You with all that i am…..

Your babygirl
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08 18th, 2007

i just got back a few days ago from visiting my Master… it was a wonderful time as always… the best of the best… everytime i go see Him… the bond We have deepens more than the last time… it is a beautiful thing.. Our Love.

i do feel very much like a lil girl with Him… i look up to Him so much… it just amazes me that overwhelming amount of Love i feel for Him… We were driving one day… and it just hit me… the depth of my Love for Him has no boundaries… i am completely in love with Him… now i have known i have been deeply in love with Him for a long time… i just have these moments when He will touch my hand and it sends this electricity through my body and i am just in utter awe of Him… then the butterflies in my stomach start up and rise up to my chest and my chest expands… like i can’t catch my breath… and the sheer joy of knowing i am His girl… His submissive… His babygirl brings tears to my eyes… tears of pure ecstasy of being His possession… NEVER did i expect to feel this way… and it is the most wonderful feeling i have ever experienced…

After spending time with Master… i have been doing alot of thinking about how much Our relationship has grown… and it has evolved into what it is… He being my Master… my Daddy.. to me being His submissive… His babygirl… again i reflect on the only contact i have had with this lifestyle… online…

So much what i have witnessed could never survive real life or is just twisted from what real life D/s is… i came across one page months ago that a woman had made entitled “babygirl needs” i reflect now on how much they are missing the true meaning of it all… it’s not about a babygirl’s needs… it’s about her Daddy’s needs… and knowing His every need.. taking care of Daddy… and through this…a babygirl’s needs will all be met…

To see someone who is claiming to be a babygirl with no Daddy… well to be a babygirl you must become a submissive first… you can be a submissive to a Master without the Daddy/babygirl aspect… but you can’t be a babygirl to a Daddy without the Master/submissive aspect… to become a babygirl i think you move into that roll by how your Master handles you… how He makes you feel… to come online wanting to be a babygirl … well i think one is overlooking the role of being a submissive and they are looking to fulfill their needs rather than their Master’s needs… it would seem some use their submissiveness to manipulate their Master.. and through this they are trying to top Him from the bottom… they are just being controlling through manipulation… a false sense of submission… i think respect for a submissive is lost then…

These thoughts have really taken a hold over me this last visit with my Daddy… how someone grows into a Daddy/babygirl relationship… We have… very much… i revel in His love… i feel so loved, cherished… i am His princess… is interesting to me that all my life i wanted to feel this… and all my past relationships were just part of my learning… my growing… to be where i am today… at my Master’s feet… it is a natural thing for us… and sometimes it just astounds me… i know my place is with Him… i am extremely proud to be who i am… His most prized possession… He has my heart and there is a chain from it to Him… He is the only one that holds the key… i am owned and i love it…

These of course are just my thoughts and observations…

Daddy’s chained princess
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08 18th, 2007

Happy Easter my Loving Master…

How i miss You… i can’t even begin to put into words my feelings for You, my Master… they are so strong and so overwhelming sometimes…

Master i crave Your kisses… i ache for Your touch… i yearn to have You take me for Your pleasure… i am Yours my Love… i await the day when i give myself to You completely and for eternity… bound to You with ties that can never be broken…….

i am Yours… mind, body, heart and soul… Yours for the taking and i surrender to You….

i love You Daddy… and i want to come home … for You are my home……

Your baby… essence



A letter to Master~04.06.07

Author: essence
08 18th, 2007

Dear Master…

i know i was not on my best behavior this week… impatient… pouty… not understanding what You needed to get done… sighs …. i know i behaved in a way that frustrates You and i accepted the assignment You gave me… to write about how it affects Our bond… it was not an easy thing for me to explore… but i know it was much needed… it did bring forth alot of personal pain and struggle that has nothing to do with Us.

Master… i am sorry for allowing it to take control of me and not recognizing it soon enough… i love You and i hang my head as i realize that Your love for me is stronger than anything i have ever known before… and it is through Your Love that i want to set free any and all fears, insecurities that i have hung onto stemming back from my childhood… i love You and You are my present, my past and my future… it is You that i only see… it is You that i long for…

It is only You…

Please forgive me…

Your babygirl essence