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my name is essence Master gave me this name when We first started exploring together i was not always a submissive woman or should i say i did not discover this side of me until i met the most wonderful Man i know. We met online almost 4 years ago i knew little of the D/s lifestyle We were first friends, talking for months… to meeting in real… becoming lovers. We've been living together for almost a year now.  i call Him Daddy.

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Master calls me essence… for i am the essence of His love… and He is the essence of my being…

Archive for June, 2007

my thoughts today~3.22.07

Author: essence
06 2nd, 2007

~reflecting~

As i sit having my morning coffee… there are some things that have come to mind… none of my friends know that i am a collared to my Master… let alone that i am a submissive… most would be completely shocked. Thinking over past relationships.. i think i came across as very strong-willed… independent… looking back… it was a cover for my confusion… my last relationship before i met Master is a very good example…

he was someone who seemed to want control… fighting me… trying to take control over me… my thoughts… my life… always telling me what i should be thinking about this or that.. or i should be doing this with my life… i resented him very much for it… yet on the other hand… he didn’t seem to have control over who he was or his life at all… he wanted me to take care of him but was not valuing me either… i could not respect him and it occurred to me over the last few weeks that i could not submit to him because he was not a Dominant … i did not feel safe with him or trust him with my submission that he would look out for my best interest… or even behold it as a gift… because that is what it truly is… submission is a gift… and a true Dominant would value that gift… treasure it…

i have thought alot about this recently… the roles in which a Dom/sub take on… it is a whole new way of life for me… having had someone force it on me to having someone who allowed it to come naturally… and nurture me… oh i still get punishments for when i disobey … and now i know i was in much need of those… and i probably will still have some down the road (one can only hope for that spanking *s*) i am still learning… i am still growing… i still have much to learn…

D/s is not something i can discuss with my friends… none of them would get it… unless they secretly live that lifestyle too lol Most of my girlfriends have that attitude of “no man is going to control me…” i was one… but now… with Master… the bond i have with Him is more than i could ever hope for… a love that goes beyond any kind of love i have ever had… with Master… i am His treasure… His princess… His baby… He is my Protector and with Him i feel safer than i have ever felt before… He truly sets me free…

Master… You are my Home. my place is at Your feet… fulfilling Your every need… i love You….

Your essence

“submission means to give up control to Your Dom. Your Dom is complete control and takes full responsibility for you. By surrendering all to Him, mind, body and spirit for Him to train You to fullfill His needs. As a sub you must learn your Dom’s needs so that you can anticipate Them. As a sub you must follow the rules set up for you by your Dom and follow them and accept the punishment that is given if you are disobediant. Be respectful to your Dom, speak respectfully, it is ok to ask questions. Loyalty is important to your Dom, do not speak badly of Him to others and do not let others speak badly of Him. you must be open and honest with your Dom and never have secrets. as a bottom you should never try to top Your Dom or manipulate Him. ”

essence©

written for Master Jan 2007